Jan 22, 2016
by Rachael Osborn
SDB Church of Boulder, CO
I myself am not perfect
and though I may not look it
sometimes I feel worthless
like there’s nothing inside
there’s something I try to hide
sometimes I don’t feel alive
I just go through
hope I make it
and when people ask how I’m doing
I lie, I say I’m fine
when my mind is a mess
and I just can’t express
the way I feel
so I mask what is real
truth is I am numb
empty
hopeless
living behind a face of joy
no one expects a thing
now I’m to the point where I’ve got nothing left
and I can’t even breathe
getting up is the hardest thing I have to do
seeing people every day
living a life in total darkness
but no one knows a thing
But wait there’s still more
I’m starting to see a light at the end of my tunnel
maybe I’ll find my way out
and I start to see, this light
it’s still in sight
and no it’s not just my imagination
it’s no longer dark
seeing people is not hard
getting up is getting easier
there’s been a weight taken off my shoulders
I can breathe again
no longer behind the face of joy
now living a life of hope
not empty or numb
full of life full of heart
still can’t express how I feel but now it’s good
I feel alive again
no longer trying to hide
there is something inside
more than precious gold
in the eyes of my father
he is my light
he has saved me
all I had to do was ask
and he pulled me up
and held me close
that’s when I realized
there’s more to life
than just breathing
In Isaiah 13:12 it says, “I will make people scarcer than
pure gold, more rare than the gold of Ophir.”
We are more precious than gold to God. He will save us
and walk us through the darkness; we just have to ask.
